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|Sunday, June 22nd, 2008|
|It's been awhile
I can't believe how long its been since I've posted anything. So here's a little update in the world of Tay:
I am getting a divorce. The ppwk has not been started yet, but there is no going back. I don't want him anymore. That's hard to say but it's the truth now. He is suppose to file the ppwk but if he doesn't, when I get my first check in August I'm getting a lawyer. I want all this to be done and over with.
I just started my training as a correctional officer for Clements, here in Amarillo. It's a maximum security prison. I know I know it doesn't sound like me at all, but it's something different and the pay is really good. I still have 5 weeks of training left, I'm excited about it. I never thought I would be doing something like this, but I also never thought I would be getting a divorce either.
I'm currently living with my parents, but I will be moving out within a few months. I'm pretty excited for my own apartment. Well I better get some other stuff done. I promise I'll be on here more often. What else do I have to do right? =-) Current Mood: blah
|Wednesday, November 15th, 2006|
|I know I know
I am the worst at keeping up with this thing and i truly am sorry. Its just after being on the computer at work all day, i don't even think to come home and get on one. Things are still going wonderful, I still love my job!! Mark is enjoying his. One new thing is: We are buying a house!! No joke, we've found the one we want and everything. The paperwork hasn't been started yet, but I have a cousin in the mortage/loan business that is going to help us with that process. My heart is not set on this house simply because it may be gone before everything gets done, but we do have a few back us. so im not worried. I'm so excited!! Our first home!!
so anyways, on Halloween Mark and I watched House of 1000 Corpses and I loved it!! I know, crazy horror movie and Tay loves it, go figure. If you haven't seen it, one of the characters is a clown and he was my favorite. Who would have though that? So of course I had to watch the Devil's Rejects and that movie is even more f*ed up and yes I loved it. I don't know what it is about those characters but they pulled me in. Captain Spaudling(the clown) was not my favorite tho, Otis was. I even watched like the 2 hours or so special features on it. Rob Zombie has a twisted mind, and thats why i liked it so much. It was so different, but not in a way. I do have to say that the ending to devil's rejects is my favorite ending of a movie of all time. Honestly, if you haven't seen it and you like movies like that watch it, if not you should at least watch the ending. It was awesome. Rob Zombie is remaking Halloween. I'm very excited to see that. He's probably one of my favorite horror movie directors. Side note: my husband got kicked in the head by Rob!!! Anyways, i gotta go be a good wife and cook dinner! I love you guys!! Meg I can't wait to see you!!!!!!!! Current Mood: calm
|Sunday, September 10th, 2006|
|It was awful!!!
So again I'm terrible at this thing and I apologize once again. Things are going really well. I am finally working a full time job making more money than I ever have before. I work for AIG. I work for what they call the mail desk, which is entry level, but my first week there they started training me for a better position, still at the mail desk, but it's a 'valuble' position. Anyways I'll update all this later but on to my horror story.
So I had to go get my annual female exam on Saturday, so I can continue with my birth control. So i'm thinking no big deal, my first one wasn't that bad, it did not hurt, a bit uncomfortable but not bad. So here I am for my second one. They take me to the room tell me to put on the paper towel 'vest' opening in the front and then the longer paper towel on my lap. Already I'm not liking this part, b/c i don't like complete strangers to see me naked. Mark, and certain friends i'm ok with being naked, it doesn't bother me. So I'm sitting there freezing and a guy walks in!! Now i know there are guy dr's who do this, but my first time was by a woman so the thought that a guy would be looking down there never even crossed my mind. Needless to say I could not relax at all and it hurt like a bitch and just the thought of a guy, other than my husband, being that close to my vagina and having his finger in me, completely freaks me out. I know its normal for guy dr's and that kind of thing does not bother them but oh my goodness. I felt weird and vialated. So i was just gonna go home and take a nap and try to forget about the whole thing, even tho I was still sore. So i walk out the door to freaking nuns holding signs, with sayings like 'save the babies' 'pray for the rosary' and stuff like that. Btw if you didn't know i get my shot from planned parenthood. When i got in my car metallica was playing and i had the strongest urge to just blare it and drive by them slowly, which is something Mark would have done. But I didn't. So now I feel vialated and like a horrible person. Which i know i'm not either one of those things, but it was just not a good day.
But i'm good now, no longer sore, and will be baby free for 3 more months!! Yay!!! Current Mood: good
|Tuesday, August 1st, 2006|
|This has been a nightmare
So Mark is in Canada right now. His Grandpa is dying of cancer and him and his mom had to make a quick trip up there. He's been gone for almost a week. I know that that isn't that long but it really is. The trip was not planned it was all of a sudden they have to get up there before he dies. The cancer has gotten to his grandpa's bones, so now its only a matter of time. So it was like Mark was ripped away from me. He decided it would be better if I stayed and got a job. That was a crappy decision, considering I've applied pretty much everywhere and still don't have a job yet, not to mention i've been so upset every little thing sets me off and I start crying again. I know it sounds stupid, but Mark and I are so dependent on each other, I'm not saying that that is a good thing, I'm just stating a fact. I have stuff to do around the house, but its like there's no reason for me to do them. I always got everything done during the day like the laundry, dishes, going to the store, just basic crap like that, so when he got home I could just spend my time with him and I wouldn't have to worry about doing anything. So now it just seems pointless for me to get stuff done, because he's not gonna be home to see it. Again stupid, I know b/c he will be coming home hopefully in the next few days. This has just been one of the most terrible weeks I've ever had. It pretty much broke my heart when he left. And I can't just call him anytime b/c of the cost and b/c he's at the hospital most of the time. It just sucks absolutely and completely. I thought i would post really fast, not that I have anything else to do. Love you guys, and I miss ya'll so much! Current Mood: sad
|Friday, June 16th, 2006|
So its been quite a while since I've posted anything. Life has been crazy. I'm married now!!! =-) and I couldn't be any happier. The wedding went so perfectly. It rained at first, but it stopped and was nice for the ceremony, except for the wind. But what can you expect having an outside wedding in the Texas panhandle. I almost cried at Mark's vows, which we wrote our own. He almost cried when I walked down the aisle. He couldn't keep his eyes on me or he would've cried. Funny how months of planning and its over in like 15 minutes, all the money and time put into it, but there are no complaints here at all. It was my dream wedding, everything about it was exactly how I imagined it. Crazy how it doesn't really hit you until you are almost down the aisle that you realize, "OMG, this is my wedding!" The absolute worst part for me, was the night before when Mark and I couldn't be together or see each other. That was pure hell. I haven't slept by myself in I don't know how long. I actually slept with Littlefoot, which I also hadn't done in a while. But I made it through. He is truly the love of my life, I never doubted it ever, but its amazing because I didn't think I could love him more than I did, but I do. I truly love him more each day.
Ok on to the honeymoon, it was so wonderful. That night we stayed in the Texas suite at Baymont Inn, it was sooo awesome, we had a jacuzzi tub surrounded (on 2 sides) with mirrors. I think that was my favorite part of my wedding day, just sitting in the tub with him and just finally being able to relax and just talk. Moving on, we went to the Houston zoo which was a lot of fun, then on to Galveston, we stayed at this hotel which was out on its own pier, oh and we stayed on the top floor(7). It was awesome waking up and seeing nothing but the ocean. We did a lot which I will go into next time.
At the moment we are in pampa till the end of the month while his parents are in Canada. We both hate pampa, and does anyone realize what a bitch it is to try to cook in someone else's kitchen where you can't find a damn thing? It sucks, but I'll live. I finally went and got the cats after being without them for like 5 days, couldn't take it. Mac peed on me on the way to the car, b/c he was scared, but the are doing fine and I'm much happier having them with me. Anyways, my husband is now telling me its time for us to take a shower, so I gotta go!! ';-) Current Mood: jubilant
|Wednesday, April 26th, 2006|
Well we still don't know what's wrong with the car yet. So Mark couldn't get the damn bronco started after he came home for lunch, so he took the car and the bronco keys, so I'm stranded at my house. =-( Oh well.
I got to spend the day with my Mom-in-law. She bought us the most beautiful champagne glasses. They're silver and we're getting them engraved with our names and wedding date. I'm excited. It was just a nice day with the two of us. We actually haven't ever got a chance to talk and spend time together, so it was really nice. I don't have a lot to say, i'm just bored and don't have anything to do. I need to go to the store and I can't =-( Current Mood: cheerful
|Tuesday, April 25th, 2006|
Well we think our car may be broken. We are hoping its nothing major but we don't know yet. We will be taking up to a car place to put it on a code reader, whatever the hell that is, and hopefully it will tell us what it wrong. I guess its just that time for one thing to happen right after the other. But thankfully we do have the bronco it just sucks on gas, but i can actually start it now. And if it is something major we really don't have to worry about it till after we get home from pampa. Actually we can't worry about it, there is no money to worry about it if it is major. But while we are in pampa, we will have his mom's car, and the bronco to get us there. So as bad as it seems right now, its not like we don't have options. My mom is going to let us take her car on our honeymoon, which her car does better on gas anyways. Just all in all it sucks, since thats supposedly our 'good, reliable' car. OH well. It will all work itself out. eventually..... Current Mood: aggravated
|Monday, April 17th, 2006|
So you know how people tell stories of how they've had a dog or cat watch them while they are going at it. Well we've had an audience now. They other night Mac decided to continually pace around the bed and meow at us. Definitely a little weird. Maggie doesn't bother us, she's in heat so she usually just sits at the end of the room giving us dirty looks. Sweet animals I tell ya. =-)
I can't wait for my bachlorette party, from the very little i've heard its gonna be the party of the year. Granted I don't know how much I'm going to be able to drink, no I'm not pregnant so get that out of your head. Not this past weekend but the weekend before that, I got so freakin drunk. Its the drunkest I have ever been. I don't remember leaving Kt and Teddys. I apparently don't remember the last two hours I was at their house. Thankfully I have Mark to take such good care of me. So drunk I don't remember throwing up that morning. And I was sick the next day, but we also found out that I had a little bit of food poisoning too. B/c I threw up every 30-45 minutes for 7 hours!! I couldn't even hold down water. So yes I finally had a hangover and food poisoning, neither do I recommend. All I can say is that I will be laying off the heavy liquer at the party.
Found out this past weekend that my future grandfather-in-law has cancer, so my in-laws are going to canada for 3 weeks in June, and Mark and I are going to be staying in pampa for that time so he can run Ronnie's business while they are gone. I'm not too thrilled to be staying in pampa for that long, but I'll get to see Mark a whole lot more during the day, and it will be like an extended honeymoon for us. So it really won't be all that bad, I hope. I'm just worried about the cats, I don't want to leave them for that long. His mom has cats so we can't bring ours. But I'll be coming home at least on Saturdays for church, if not more than that for the cats. Well I should go get stuff done. I'll talk to yall later! Current Mood: calm
|Tuesday, March 21st, 2006|
I came on here with the intention to actually write a lot of stuff, but now its like I don't know where to start or even what to say.
I had the worst feeling of helplessness the other day and I don't even know why. I was at work and I forgot my cell phone at home, and when I went on break I couldn't call Mark. There are phones at work we can call out on, but you have to dial 8 first and it won't let you dial 806 and then the number, which you have to dial the area code and then the number to call his cell since its from Pampa. For no reason other than the fact I couldn't call him, i bursted into tears. Pretty much had a small emotional breakdown. No clue why. The job kept me completely stressed out, it was terrible. But its over now and I'm much much better. It was just the worst feeling that I simply couldn't call him. Yeah i'm pretty sure atmos thinks i'm totally nuts now but thats all right, I don't really care.
On much brighter news, wedding plans are great. I have all the flowers. I've made all the coursages(sp?) and half of the boutineers(sp?). I haven't started on my bouquet yet, but its coming. All the bridesmaids bouquets are done, i just have to add ribbon to them. I met with our photographer and they are so nice. Its a married couple and they are so excited to do it. I can't wait!! I'm so ready for it to be here already. We are going thru pre-marital counciling right now. Its actually a lot of fun. I think he is enjoying it too! Some of it is kinda pointless b/c we cheated and its like we are already married, since we've been living together for quite some time now, but thats ok.
We just bought an '85 Bronco. Its so much fun! Its the big one, not the smaller one. Its white, so we call it 'the juice' thanks to davey. =-) Its actually really nice for how old it is. Only has 86,000 miles, whoever had it didn't drive it much and took really good care of it. The top comes off and everything. Gonna be a great summer car!!! Its definitely fun to drive! People used to get out of my way when I was driving, now they really do!! =-) Life is good right now, it really is. Current Mood: loved
|Sunday, February 12th, 2006|
|Happy Birthday LB!!
Hey girlie! I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday!!! Hope you have a great day!!
|Tuesday, January 31st, 2006|
|Not so desperate housewife
Yep thats me at the moment, i'm a housewife. I quit Olive garden in dec. it was going to crap, I couldn't get any hours unless I worked nights also and I wouldn't b/c thats my time with Mark. Anyways, I'm looking for a job now since my house is unpacked and the extra money is needed.
But yeah I cook almost every night, do the dishes, laundry, keep the place clean and all that stuff. Craziness I know but I love doing it I really do. Its nice for Mark to come home to a clean home and i love going to be at night knowing that my place isn't a mess. If you can believe it I don't put my clothes on the floor anymore!! Unless its late and I take them off beside the bed, but then in the morning I put them away. I knew i would have to get this way sometime, who knew it would be so soon. I dont mind at all.
I'm excited to get to talk to ya'll on a regular basis now. I haven't had computer access like this in over a year. Neways, I'm suppose to be looking for wedding stuff. If neone has ne ideas for invitations let me know!! Current Mood: good
|Wednesday, January 25th, 2006|
|It's been awhile...
It's been a long time since i've posted on here. I guess thats what happens when you don't have a computer at home, but that will be changing this Friday, so I will be on here more often!!
Let's see where shall I start hmmmm well me and Mark just moved into our new duplex this past weekend. And I am so freakin happy about that. For those who didn't know our apt was literally making us sick. See the lady downstairs died in her apt and no one found her for 2 weeks and her smell got into the heating vents and made all the apts smell like dead lady. They didn't get the place professionally cleaned at all, so it was terrible. We didn't know she died, b/c she never left her apt, you never heard fr her or nething, and it didn't smell until they moved her. Neways, our duplex is actually pretty f-ing huge. Our bedroom is upstairs and takes up the whole upstairs of the house, its nice. And there are 2 other bedrooms, which the back one is Mark's smoke room, b/c I don't want him smoking in the rest of the house, the middle one isn't really anything, has a cabinet in it and i'm going to figure out something for it.I love it, its so much better. I can't wait for ya'll to see it. I'm still working on unpacking everything, but its coming along nicely. We are the last ones to move. BJ and Batman were the first(granted they only moved like 5 doors down from Derrick's apt), then Kt and Teddy, Derrick and Beavis moved to canyon(no more party apt=-() and now me and Mark.
Now update on the wedding. I got my dress, well david's bridal technically has my dress, but its on layaway along with my veil and shoes. I love it, its very different. Mark went and got his tux, its black with a black shirt, and a red tie and vest. He's gonna look sooo freakin good. I think I found the bridesmaid's bouquets that I'm gonna make, kinda hard to explain or I would. The bridesmaid's 'dresses' are a calf length black skirt, with a red top. And thats about all so far, at least all the interesting stuff. I miss getting to talk to you guys like I used to. We need to be better at keeping in touch. Well I better go so I can unpack some more before my baby comes home! Current Mood: cheerful
|Tuesday, December 20th, 2005|
Meg are you home yet?????????
|Tuesday, November 15th, 2005|
It has been a really long time since i've updated and i apologize. Don't have as much computer access as I would like but anyways...
Mark and I are doing wonderful! He asked my dad for his blessing to marry me(at Katie's wedding!) of course my dad said yes! So like it has been set all along, my wedding is May 20th!!! I'm so excited, and so is Mark which is great! We are still living in the same apt and we want to get a house soon, we've been looking but not seriously at the moment, our financial standings aren't in the correct place for a house payment right now, but soon it will be. He takes such good care of me, we cook for each other and we go to the laundry mat. We are one of those sickening completely head over heels in love for each other couples. I couldn't be happier. 'Love is everything its cracked up to be'!
Katie's wedding was perfect! Extremely stressful but absolutely perfect. We were only 20 minutes late, which is really good for us. Considering we were suppose to leave the gazebo at 3 to go start getting ready, we left at 5 and still had to take showers when the wedding started at 6:30. So 20 minutes late was amazing for us, considering Seritha had to shower also. I finally got to meet Ginny and she honestly is a sweetheart. Instead of us hating each other like the storyline predicted, we actually liked each other and she will be coming back to Texas for my wedding!!
I miss talking to ya'll! I wish i had more time to get on the computer and chat with ya'll. Hopefully we will be getting the internet soon and we can keep in touch.
So Mark is going with me to my Grandpa's house for Thanksgiving! I'm very excited, he's mainly excited about the food, which is fine.
Alright alright, i gotta go for now. I'll try to get back on soon. Current Mood: happy
|Thursday, September 22nd, 2005|
|The greatest thing you'll ever learn....
So I'm sure ya'll know by now that I'm with Mark and I'm so friggin happy its not even funny! I can't describe it. At the beginning I was scared I was just worried that I was in it so i wouldn't be alone and he was there. I was upset over Kasey and all that jazz, but i was wrong. Mark is the one and I couldn't be happier. He's amazing. I know I know ya'll knew he was the right one from the beginning but even Mark and I think that we wouldn't have made it if we would have got together in may. We actually got to be friends first and got to know each other and just found out that we are meant to be, which is the best way to do it, I think.
So I hope you guys like him and approve because he's not going anywhere. We're gonna get married actually, we've talked about it, but we're not going to say anything until its official. Which means after he asks my dad and then officially proposes to me. =-) I'm so excited!! So be prepared ladies!!!!
Well don't have too much else to say so i'm gonna go for now. Katie I miss you!!!!!!! Current Mood: ecstatic
|Tuesday, August 30th, 2005|
I am back in the saddle again and going back to school(like the aerosmith line =-)) so i just want to offer a big fuck you to all the people who thought I wouldn't be returning! I'm only taking 2 classes this year but thats better than nothing. Its getting me started again and thats all that matters.
Hey Meg, how are you doing babe?? Hope all is well in Austin. OMG I miss you soooo freaking much its not even funny! We haven't done party on the patio without you granted. Granted you left only a week ago and its only tuesday but kt has to work this thursday so we won't be going this week either. =-( but don't worry we will start going again soon hopefully and we will drink extra margaritas for you!!!
Not much is new here, actually kinda but other ppl are around so I can't type anything good but I will later. But I gotta work on school stuff so I'm gonna bounce!!! Love ya'll!!! Current Mood: discontent
|Thursday, August 18th, 2005|
|I ain't no damsel in distress
Well hell, let's dive right in shall we? Kasey and I are over for good this time. We pretty much have been for awhile, we just always end up together when he comes to town, esp when alcohol is involved. His bday party got me into a lot of trouble. I got pretty damn drunk and we got together and I was about to start officially dating Mark the very next day. Well let me say I had no intentions on getting with Kasey at all, I honestly didn't. I swear on my love for Hanson that I didn't. But the inevitable happened and we did, and when Mark came home I was still in the bedroom with Kasey. Actually I think at that moment Kasey was puking all over the floor b/c he couldn't find the door handle(or his pants) to get out of the room. Once we got that handled(ha ha i'm so funny =-)) i found kt and was talking with her, and teddy came to talk to me. Then kt and I went outside and I knew Mark was home b/c he had text me to ask where I was(my reply was that I was taking care of Kasey b/c he was puking everywhere). Kasey came outside and wanted to talk, so we spent like 2 hours talking to each other away from everyone else. He's trying to hold me and i'm pissed(not sure why at this point, like I said I was drunk) and keeping my hands in my back pockets. Partly b/c i'm mad and b/c I knew Mark was standing 15 feet away watching. We had a good 2 hour convo, and I told him everything I ever wanted to and he said stuff and we got everything out in the open. Which in the end gave me a sense of hope about us and i went home to go to bed b/c i had to work the next am. Needless to say I never got to talk to Mark and we/he decided it would be better if we just stayed friends which i don't blame him at all.
This past weekend we went to pampa for a random party that turned out to be just me, kasey, kt, teddy and beavis. it was pretty fun. We played moose and kings. I "won" both times at kings. Finally threw up for the first time from drinking too much and went back out there and continued to drink. No hangover next am, i was good. Kasey and I talked once we got in bed and pretty much he contradicted everything f*ing thing he said to me a week ago. I got up the next am and went home without saying a word to anyone. I cried pretty much the whole drive home. Kasey didn't necessarily do anything on this trip but it was just my realization that things were actually over for good. We are going to be friends but we have a lot of forgiving to do so we can be. He broke my heart and he knows it, I didn't love him tho. Somehow I think thats suppose to make me feel better. Hell maybe I did and didn't know it, or I didn't because I knew this would happen. No one can deny the connection we have between us, but a simple connection doesn't make a relationship. I'm hurt but I'm doing better already. I've been able to open my eyes more and see the bigger picture as cliche as that sounds. I can see that he isn't the one for me right now or maybe ever. He has some growing up to do. He still wants that fairytale love and I don't know if I believe in fairytales anymore. He'd have to treat me differently that he did, but I think/know he would if we had been more defined. He will always be my K-Diggity and someday soon I can say that and smile...
But for now i'm still working on it and i'm going to go join my boys and watch Urban Legend: Bloody Mary
(Did anyone else know that they made this third urban legend movie?? I sure didn't, prolly means its gonna blow. oh well.) Current Mood: indescribable
|Friday, August 12th, 2005|
|for a dreamer nights the only time of day
well the last time I posted anything I was good and drunk and all hell broke loose at that party. We had another one this past weekend and all hell broke loose again well not as bad but kinda just in different situations. Its like 5 am and I'm taking my tabc certification so i can work at grahams and i'm just tryin to stay awake so I'm not going to get into any details about anything tonight. Laura, Meg already told you what went down and I will get into that later I promise. We definitly have some catching up to do thats for sure. I should be almost done with this certification thingy so I'm out for the night. Current Mood: exhausted
|Sunday, June 26th, 2005|
|Inebriated beyond belief
so i am completely drunk right now. I've drank like a full glass of tequila rose which is fucking awesome if you haven't tried yet, and like Kasey is so fucking sexy. I want to fuck the hell out of him.... right now. . No really... Right now... Damn he's hottt!!!
btw he just walked into the room and typed that. i've had some crown and i did a beer bong. I'm good to go thats for sure. I don't have a lot to say, but i am haveing trouble finding the keys so laterz
|Saturday, June 25th, 2005|
|Concerts are my aphrodisiac
Wow its been over a month since I posted on here. Crazy how much things have changed since then. So I had things all worked out from my last entry, but as you all know Ryan died the next day. Its totally crazy how in a 24 hour period how your life can totally be turned inside out and leave you completely f*ed.
But on a brighter note, I'm incredibly happy right now. I'm with Kasey and its omg amazing. I'm crazy about that boy. There is nothing better than going to sleep on his chest and waking up with his arms around me. I love it. I don't think I love him yet, but I love being with him, I miss him when he's not around, I get sad when i haven't talked to him. So you can take whatever you would like from that. Crazy as it sounds, if he were to come over right now and say 'lets go, let's get out of this town' I'd go. No second thought about it. I'd leave with him and go anywhere. Now thats nuts and I know it but isn't it great?
Most of you already know all this, but K-Diggity is 20, a firefighter, lives in Pampa, a writer, artist, love of my life, ect. He's part of the group of guys I hang with. He's one of Derrick's friends, and its all good. Derrick and I are great, we talk all the time, we truly are friends and its wonderful. In fact, I'm in Derrick's room right now typing this. He isn't here, he's actually in pampa right now, taking the test to become a firefighter. Which is awesome, but I don't want him to move to pampa. =-( That will be really sad.
Anyways, I think Kt and I are going to Ozzfest in August. The boys said we can't go but we are anyway. We aren't going with them, we are going separately and we will conviently run into them at the concert. I just went to Prom Kings, No Address, Crossfade, and Seether the other night. It was so f*ing awesome. I love concerts! I went crowdsurfing and I went moshing. I'm so incredibly sore and my jeans ripped down the side from it all, but it was well worth it. But I'll write more about the concert soon, I gotta go email some people, but I will do my best to keep this updated more frequently. Talk to ya'll later. Current Mood: content